sometimes i ponder if it is worth spending so much of efforts,time and money into something you really wanted ?

Im at the cross road once again.When i looked back,it seems like i have been placing too much focus on the what i want and because of this,i have sacrificed many things and opportunity given..

Many will think it is a foolish decision. but to me i think its worth it.Though i have not seen the result of it yet,i believe One Day it will be a dream come true.

I can be quite stubborn at times,if i already set my mind or determine on something ,im willing to give up almost all i have ...really thank god for my supportive and lovely parents. Without you guys i wont have made it so far and have any courage to make these crazy decisions and led an absolutely different path than anyone else.

Sometimes or most times i feel guilty because as the eldest i did not fulfilled my duty of helping out in the family .I know im selfish and self centered,but thank you for  being so understandable,supportive and always allowing me to pursue what i want ..really hope that one day,everything will come to an end and im able to spend quality time with the family.