I'm Sorry

I guess for those who knows me well enough or hang out with me all these years will know that i have a rather good temper.I dont really get angry easily or release my angry towards anyone.Praise the Lord for it! But for one thing if the weather is too hot and humid i guess my tolerate level will tend to be lower. lol.

Oh well,i felt bad this morning when i raised my voice to someone.To be honest, i think that person dint really take it seriously cuz i wasn't that fierce thou.I  just spoke a bit louder and in a half joking tone than usual .But still,i felt bad for it ,the main reason is because he was innocent.After all hes just being a nice guy.lol.I know he wont be reading this, but if so happen he does.I am truly sorry about it! I should know it wasn't you in the first place.

Lesson for me today is, I should always ask the reason behind everything before any actions.

James 1:19 Let every person be quick to listen,slow to speak,slow to anger.

I am a person that cant really sits still doing nothing at home.Recently been quite bored,as all of the sudden everyday apart from my daily routine basically i have nothing much to do.Before that,at least i can study cpa,not too say that i like to study but at least i know that's something i have to do

I cant spend hours  browsing the internet as whole day i have been sitting down in the office staring at the computer screen for almost 7 or 8 hours.I just need a break for my eyes.

In order to make my life more happening n keep me busy , I organise a dinner at home with some close friends last night.Everything went well, and indeed i enjoyed  their company as we are able to spend time catching up with each other.

I cant wait for Christmas to come. Hmmm..i got almost 1 week off hopefully able to have short gateway to somewhere in the county. 

The season that needs to go pass

Havent been blogging for ages.I guess this is one of the most effective way to improve my writing skills and express my true feelings out.After reading my previous post it really encourage me,as this few days my mind has been troubled and wondered a lots since i came back from Malaysia.I could't sleep well and all i do is just kept thinking how,when,where,who is going to solve my problem.I know there is someone i can truly surrender myself to but i dint place 100% trust and been trying to escape myself from facing the problem.Nothing really hits me, i am just very disappointed in myself why cant i do well !

Apart from all these, I also don't know what the hell is going on to me these days.I don't find much interest or maybe felt left out once again in a group like i used to be.I am not sure am i in the right circle friends or i just have no intention to even try to be part of the group.How i misses those days....

Well,for now i just need to keep praying .Pray that God will reveal to me once again.I really need a refreshing touch from him

Testimony

I totally forgot about blogging my own blog till last night i spend my whole night reading about food blog in Melbourne while looking for a nice place for dinner this Thursday night.

Oh well,by the grace of God at the eleventh hour i finally got a job offered.The door has finally opened,after almost a year of waiting and praying.Just to share my testimony to encourage those who are still waiting for God's answer.For those who knows me well enough,all i ever wanted after graduated from Uni is to stay in Australia as long as possible.Going back Malaysia is my biggest nightmare as i never have any thoughts or intention to go back home.Last year,was the year i had to make the decision to take on the challenge to stay on in Aus no matter how hard the life is.

However,life gets tougher each day when you see all your peers going back one after another,and people surrounding keep questioning you,and the hardest part is to overcome yourselves to make sure that u are making a right decision that u would never regrets despite any consequences.I still remember vividly almost every time i caught up with my close friends,i will keep asking them the same old question of whether my decision worth it a not.Just to get an extra confirmation for my doubtful heart.

Well,after 6 months of looking for a job finally the day for my first interview came.It was an golden opportunity to be able to make it to the interview as more than 200 ppl apply for that position and only 7 people were called to the interview and i was one of the luck one.Though the end result,i dint managed to get that position but i was glad at least i can see the glimpse of God light from the doorway.Life still goes on as usual as i dint give up applying job from the internet for i know one day there will be a place for me.

Just to cut the whole story short,i got my second interview in mid of Jan which is 3.5 months after my first interview.And the miracle thing is i got the interview just a day before i fly back to Malaysia for holiday.And on the same day,i got confirmation from the employer that i am offered a position.I was so glad and i could not believed it myself as so many things going on at the same time.The moment i got the confirmation,i was stunned ...Thats the first time ever i dint know how to react after hearing the good news.

Just 3 days b4 i leave for Malaysia,i actually got call from this company and i was very honest to them by telling them that i will be back to Malaysia on Thursday night,is it possible to arrange an interview for me within the next 2 days?The lady on the phone said she will get back to me asap by next day.However,i did not received any calls the next day,and i thought she will never get back to me.Deep inside my heart, i regretted why should i tell the employer that i will be away.I should just burnt my flight ticket and stay on for interview.At that time,i dint even have the mood of going back and i cant even be bother to pack my luggage after all that had just happened.

On Wednesday early morning,the lady actually called me back and asked can i go for the interviews in the afternoon.I could not describe how happy i was at that moment of time,it just beyond description.I just get myself prepared by getting changed and looked up the internet for the location and went straight to the interview.I dint even have the time to prepare for the interview.

From here i can truly testify that, if God really prepare something for you no one can take it away from you.No matter how bad the situation is,If God moves, things can changed beyond time horizon.Nothing is impossible for God.

Lastly, i really i wanna to say a big thank you for those that has been praying and stood beside me .Your encouragement and presence really helps to strengthen and build up my trust in the Lord.Without you guys, i don't think i would have the courage to persevere on till the end.I will try my best at work,work hard to achieve the goals that are yet to be achieved and of course place my full trust on what God has plan for me in my future.Hopefully your desire is for me to stay on in this beautiful place.