come online

still waiting for Matthew to come back from pasar malam.Haven been seeing him from web cam for almost 3 weeks.he is so cute.how i wish i can give him a cuddle.while waiting was cheking on my assignment q n just realise that i got 126pg of a company prospectus to read on.

matthew's latest pic send by dad

he is going to be 2 years old tmr

happy birthday

just in the church service some thought just seems to struck me into my mind.suddenly i just felt i am kind of afraid of something going to happen which i dunno .deep inside me i felt that i am too peaceful that really scare me off,everything things seems too good, as it seems like i have nothing much to be worried of.

people always ask me how life going?

my reply to them is always fine ,ok,or good.

In reality,i have tons and tons of stuff i need to do like assignment,study for test,start looking for jobs,thinking about my future,my application for aus residency and etc.why am i not worried at all?do i really dun care at all? mine answer is i still cares...all these means a lots to me.

Finding

is true that not knowing too much things is better and made your life simple and easy.Knowing something u not suppose to know sometimes will create a false image or even a bad perception of u towards that person.many times i slow in observation and insensitive to things.people might said is good and be innocent not to know so much.i know i cant compare,maybe is just my nature not to be born in that way.But i realise i still dint get to know people well enough. well in the sense that u really know someone so well till what she is thinking or doing is all within your expectation or even when thins happen you will be the first one that she will think of.so many friends here,some of them are quite close too.but i still cant really find someone that i can trust that will be by mine side through thick and thin telling things from my heart and cry out when i need a shoulder.closeness is just not something you can force yourselves to it,you might have make an effort but at the end of the day it still comes from your heart, the chemistry .still looking for the substances that will make this reaction works.(not BGR CHEMISTRY)

sometimes is good to be slow rather than rushing through in life.MOst of time i envy of what people have earlier than me.After looking at people surrounding me, Only now i realised that good things are mean to wait.I still have so many things listed in my waiting list.Hopefully i can achieve it one by one.

I used to dream how i wish if i am at the age of 23.But now i am scare of getthing older once i step in 21.Time seems like flowing so fast,cant imagine now is already end of July.Wat is going to happen in my life next year?where will i be? and wat will i be doing? all and all is so unforeeable.

sorry for closing my blog without any notice. still in the process of sorting out things.

When you gets older there are more things to be considerate.Every step you take will determine your future.Sometimes is only when you lose it only then you know how important it is to you.Is often too late to regret,things just happened out of your control .By picking up the bits and pieces of people's experience not only keeps me aware of the situation but also reminds me to avoid the same things from happening.